19-08-2010 Bottled-Up

I used to write a lot. Privately, but a LOT. I kept journals; sometimes two at a time. I exchange snail mails with a lot of friends - even those that I see daily. I pour out my thoughts and sentiments through these letters. I rarely have excess baggage, my head is clear most of the time unless of course something else in liquid form muddles my brain J

From 5 years ago, my writing became sporadic. Nagni-ningas-cogon, I could hardly finish an entry. My thoughts strayed halfway to unreachable corners. And from then on I kept a lot of things hidden in a compartment in my head. I am beginning to see the reason for my change of disposition. I have so many pent-up emotions. I am a dam about to burst. I think I need a…..

14.08.2010 thoughts...thoughts..thoughts...

Ramadan Kareem!

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On "forced diet". I thought fasting would be a great way to kickstart my nth attempt at dieting. A girl could only dream. I end up eating more before going to bed and after sundown both because of being actually hungry and of the fear of becoming hungry in the middle of the day. Duh! I must really work on that fruit diet.


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Although due to a family circumstance, I still lamented on the fact that hubby and I are in the house at the same for the whole day, two days in a row. I have repeatedly asked him not to take an impromptu day-off on my day-off. Sure, spending time together is a must for couples but I do value my "alone time" a lot.

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I spent half of this day arranging our movie collection. My movies spread across different genres but his is limited to horror. After hearing him complain forever about not having a decent movie to watch, I convinced him to watch MY movie - Blood: The Last Vampire. As expected, he lost his interest halfway. Right after he commented that the heroine is Blade's cousin. It occurred to me that he never did like movies that involves samurai, kung fu, ninja. And I wonder why I enjoy them. And I did remember why. Back in the 80's, after the Sunday morning mass, me and my brother used to watch Chinese movies on TV. And more often these Chinese movies would have something to do with martial arts. Fixation?