20.11.2008
There are just moments when I feel sad for no apparent reason. Just like now. At this exact moment I just want to cry. Perhaps I feel pity for myself… or maybe I am just sick and tired of it all. I don’t want to be a cynic. I know there are a lot of things I should be thankful for. Maybe my life can sometimes be a sad tale, but I can never say it is worthless.
25.11.2008
I am angry; again at no one in particular. Whenever I feel frustrated and generally furious, I long for the times when a stick or a bottle is enough to drown the misery and rage. Somehow it is even infuriating to realize that no else is to be blamed for my misfortune. Yes, no one else but yours truly. How sad. How maddening.
28.11.2008
Revenge is sweeter when you don’t have to lift a finger to make it happen. I don’t usually revel in a person’s downfall but when it is one that you had eagerly anticipated and had blown out of proportion, I let go of my manners and just suck it all in. Well, that made me happy. EVIL LAUGH!
